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I have to make recommendations soon. My mind and heart know what they will be. I no longer will be your saviour. I realize you may hate me. I know the closeness that comes through witnessing tragedy like yours will now become strained and eventually eat away. I have to be bad the guy now. I have to step into a fucked up role, which was created by fucked up people that should not be in your little fucked up life. I hate this part of my job. In your eyes you will only see the pain in this moment my recommendations will cause you. You don't have the capicity to see down the road.



They will ask me for my professional opinion...what am I to say? My professional opinion is that they should pack all of your things and move you far away from those who say they love you. They should allow your spirit to run free...as those who you are with have their own agenda and prance you around like a show pony. The adults you have trusted, the ones I reluctantly sanctioned are inappropriate. They lied, misrepresented themselves and their plans, as well as, now they are pointing fingers at others for the horrific situation you have expereinced. Despite the truth that in reality they participated either actively or passively in the death of innocence. Despite discussions and explainations of ramifications they continue to have their own personal agendas. They have asked you inappropriately to chose and they have involved you in adult situations and decisions. Once again...you are not allowed to be a child.



This time however, I fucking was a part of your situation. I agreed to this. Now i will have to tell what i know, say what i beleive and explain why this is so wrong. They just don't understand. I wish to god your mom was worthy and capable of parenting you. she has had years to get her shit together yet she never has. and now she has the balls to lay at a tombstone and cry with cammeras rolling...but he is my baby. My brain screams shut up, you fucking spineless idiot.

Where the hell was she when things were going so horribly wrong? oh i know she was sucking a glass dick!



Be a true parent...put this child's needs before your own. Step away...let him go. This child has a chance to be loved and a provided a stable family and home. This is your one, last chance to be a truely loving parent to this child...let him go.





People often question, how i can be so matter of fact about this sort of situation...it is easy...the child's best interest are what matters and child's well being is the goal. Not all parents act in the child's best interest and not all parent's have the child's well being as their goal. Some have their own goals and agendas...so where does that leave the child? Alone...perhaps in a box...I'll be damned.



The County will be pissed because this will throw a monkey wrench into there quick exit plan. The family will be pissed because I will advocate for permancy outside of the family. You will be confussed and sad and angry and hurt because you are so little. I have to make recommendations soon.



I'll be damned.

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borked
12:05 Sep 23 2008

You are one of the few I think whose judgment I'd trust.

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hotmusic
19:22 Sep 25 2008

you are strong, you are resolute, you are true, you are pure in thought and desire, you win, you can, and you will rise again, as will this presious soul you seek to protect,,



your damned if you do,,,,,

your damned if you don't..



i'll be damned



do what is right and be proud

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EmeraldPhoenix
05:31 Dec 08 2008

i was damned. the judge followed my recommendations. we are all damned...except maybe him.

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headlines and news clips

you are shocked and mortiffed

you turn your head and your stomach flips

you can't possibly know what to say.

the words, they paint an inconcievable picture.

the pictures don't do your suffering justice.

the headlines won't know your real pain.

the television camera can't capture the emotional drain.

the blogs that people run, with fucking petty comments

can't comprehend what your little eyes had seen.

what your little soul felt as it was squashed and squelched

your hair falling out in dried, haystack clumps

with your eyes milky like a fish's on the shore.

how your stomach wrenched with bile

and how you screamed and cried

until your broken and starved little body...

finally died.

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hotmusic
18:46 Sep 02 2008

i sincerily hope, i suspect in vain , that you did not go through this,,,,,,, very quiet here for a min....

tell me u didn't

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EmeraldPhoenix
23:18 Sep 02 2008

Well, you know me and know I don't play games about this sort of thing. This reflects my feelings about a recent case and the involvement of the media. Thank you for your reflection.

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hannahrose
06:55 Dec 29 2008

THA IS SO SAD AND HEARTBREAKING ONE CAN ONLY IMAGINE WHATHAT POOR CHILD WENTTHRU BEFROE HE FINALLY DIED

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